TANA MONGEAU

I think after going through some scandals and realizing that if I'm growing as a person, and I'm acknowledging my mistakes, and I'm constantly bettering myself to be the best me that I can possibly be, what more can I really be?

I threw myself into the only thing I ever felt passionate about, the only thing that has ever saved my life, which is YouTube.

It's crazy that I look at 2019 as one of my best career years of my life. If you put it all into bullet points of all the things I did, you'd be like, 'Wow that's an amazing year,' but mentally, I just feel the lowest I've ever felt.

It's important to accept people for the reality of what they are, who they are, whatever that is and heal from that yourself.

I never thought that after what happened with TanaCon that VidCon would be open to a conversation.

I always have gone out of my way to be known as a person who is always so nice to their fans and treats everyone like equal.

Getting a good grasp of your life and what's going on around you is so important.

In the past, I used to sit there and watch every single video and read every single article top to bottom, like, ripping me apart.

I'm just so thankful to my fans.

I will always make mistakes. I am a human being.

2020 for me is a really big year of realness and authenticity and just being who I am.

I think that it's important to take time for yourself and to make sure to have those real moments when you're in bed at night, when you're with yourself.

I just always have that connection with my fans where I want to give them my most like raw authentic self.

My childhood was so traumatic.

PewDiePie's a smart guy.

I'm just like, a girl making videos, living her life.

I do feel like I am immensely transparent with my fans. If I'm feeling something or I'm going through something, I'm going to talk about it. Like if I have a break up or if I'm stressed, or whatever I'm feeling, I'm going to come online and talk about it.

Due to my lack of family, I've almost built a family around me of friends that are, for me that is, they mean more to me than my own family.

No matter what you do, people are always going to have something negative to say about it. You could spend your life constantly trying to seek people's approval and validation, but there is always going to be someone that has something negative to say about what you're doing.

I love livestreaming, I think it's awesome and my fans really like it.

It's my favorite thing to do: meeting the people who support me and make everything possible.

It's very easy to get caught up in the world of press and maintaining an image and maintaining this highlight reel that the world expects.

From January to December of 2019, I crumbled, to be real, and I think by the end of 2019 I had beaten myself up in every possible way to the point where I wasn't even a person. I was fully at rock bottom.

The second I walked into Jake Paul's world, there was no taking me out of it.

Hell would freeze over before I saw my parents happily holding hands and ice skating.