AMANDA: I think very few people are completely normal really, deep down in their private lives.
I'm much softer than people think. I don't present to the world an emotional face. I'm pretty good at self-control, but I am easily moved.
Reading about myself on public platforms makes me uncomfortable. I don't like it. I read other people's interviews or articles, but when it comes to myself, if I see something about myself then I immediately turn over the page.
People ask me to describe myself, but it's a very personal thing. You don't feel comfortable.
I've never put a lot into being a celebrity, that just flies over my head because that's not really who I am. But as you can imagine, you get exposed to a lot of different things because of what you do and I lived a pretty excessive lifestyle.
At home I am a nice guy: but I don't want the world to know. Humble people, I've found, don't get very far.
Any performer is one person privately and then he's another person when he steps on the stage.
People think I'm so strong, but I'm very shy.
If you're a stranger, and you've never met me before, I'll probably be more reserved and quiet. If you're my friend, you probably see the same stuff that you see me do onstage.
My concerts are about me being very private in public, but I'm very protective.
I'm not a performer who will come on stage and tell you everything about my life. It's just not who I am.
I look at myself objectively and in a way I see myself as a commodity. Your name becomes somehow outside yourself. Now, when I'm at home being Mrs. Scarfe, that's when I'm most myself.
When you become a public figure, you still think, 'That's really not me; there's more to me than that.'
When you're famous, you don't get to meet people because they want you to like them when the present themselves to you, and you don't see the real people.
Everyone knows a lot about me without actually knowing me at all.
It was very natural for me to want to disappear into dark theater, I am really very shy. That is something that people never seem to fully grasp because, when you are an actor, you are meant to be an exhibitionist.
I step into a character in my public life. People who don't make that distinction are dooooomed.
I know I look arrogant, but I'm altogether a different person outside the ring.
What people see on court is another side of me; it's not me.
When I was in the ring, you really saw the best of me. Outside the ring, I was really some terrible fellow.
People hide their truest nature. I understood that; I even applauded it. What sort of world would it be if people bled all over the sidewalks, if they wept under trees, smacked whomever they despised, kissed strangers, revealed themselves?
Gabriel Garcia Marquez was a newspaperman originally in Colombia. He talked about - and I agree - how everybody has a public life, a private life, and a secret life.
Even now, I have traces of the good little girl. When I am not performing, for instance, I am really very quiet and ordinary.
The difference between me as Brian Warner or Marilyn Manson is just words. Same personality, sensibility, sense of humor, behavior. He is me.
I was a bit of a sleeper-inner.
