I was just used to being in shape, and getting out of it was really difficult for me.
I don't think that I could fit into the costume anymore.
I'm a 50 year-old guy and I'm not in shape like I was when I was 30.
The moment an athlete doesn't train, things start to get a bit rusty.
I decided to write 'True Refuge' during a major dive in my own health. Diagnosed with a genetic disease that affected my mobility, I faced tremendous fear and grief about losing the fitness and physical freedom I loved.
I lost more then 6 kilograms when I ceased with the top sport. That were all muscles. They are now gone.
The thing about getting older is the injuries. You just get injured more often. You take time off, you come back, you get injured again and you never get in shape.
There are a lot of great athletes who stop working out, and they get out of shape like everybody else in their 30s and 40s.
It's so easy to lose your fitness and so hard to gain it back.
I'm not as good a swimmer as I used to be - thanks to evolution.
