I am the kind of person who hates the gym. I am allergic to the gym. I want to run away from it.
If I do cardio I'll disappear.
I'm scared of the gym - I see all these machines, and I'm like, 'What is that? What am I supposed to do?'
There was something in my brain when it came to exercising - my stomach would churn, my heart would go and beat funny. I'd be like: 'I just don't want to do this.'
It took me years to find a program that kept me in shape: Gyms felt intimidating, and women's magazines seemed tailored for toning the bodies of already trim white women.
Stepping into the gym or going out to do sports is a scary thing for a trans person - you feel like everyone is looking at you.
I hate working out - I have to mentally push myself through it. I can get very whiny, saying things like, 'I can't do it!'
My first time on the treadmill, I was nervous.
I'm really self-conscious if I go to trainers, so I just do stuff on my own. I go on the treadmill or do yoga and Pilates if I can.
I'm just not a fan of the gym. In fact, I hate it. I understand loving the feeling you get after working out all those endorphins. But going there? It's the worst.
If you are in a gym class with other women, and even if you are in shape, you feel like, 'Do they think my legs are not right?' Since you are supposed to be the perfect one, they look for the defects. It's such an embarrassment.
I break out in a rash if I go to the gym; all I did was shave my chest.
I hate workout classes... Every time I go into one, my anxiety is really high. I leave immediately - like, before the warm up!
The problem with the treadmill is I just don't know what to do in my head. You either stare at the mirror or concentrate on the TV. It makes me ill because I can't relax on a treadmill.
