Kyle Carpenter Quotes

When you go through a traumatic event, there's a lot of shame that comes with that. A lot of loss of self-esteem. That can become debilitating.

However, if you listen to me I think you can hear years of abuse in my voice - both bad abuse and good abuse.

My fears and anxieties throughout my whole life have been slowly squeezing my voice.

In 1987 I got dartitis, a psychological condition which means you can't let your darts go properly. For a time, I wondered what the hell I was going to do if I didn't recover. But I remained positive and, thankfully, got over it. It occurred during the Swedish Open when I found I couldn't let the darts go.

Most of us have unhealthy thoughts and emotions that have either developed as a result of trauma or hardships in their childhood, or the way they were raised.

I'm a creative person who had a lot of dark time in my life. I can still get to it: I can still go to a relationship or a time when things weren't great. But it's getting further and further from me.

I've always been more interested in what happens after the bad thing has happened - the fallout of the bad thing, when people are already damaged. I'm less interested in seeing people when they're fine and following their journey to becoming damaged.

I can't believe I survived, not only my life, but I am still playing football 'cause half of those eight or nine years I don't even remember.

I've abused myself a lot over the years. But my voice is still intact - really, it's better.

I was bullied at school, and I let that get hold of me and withdrew into myself - I regret letting that happen.

I was bullied in elementary to middle school. It messed with my self esteem.

You look at players who are off form and there's a general disappointment, their confidence goes low and their whole demeanour can change. I've seen it hundreds of times but it's difficult to know what's really going on inside someone's mind.

It's hard when you get down. You start pressing a little bit trying to get back in the game.

Painful breakups can have profound effects on the body and mind.

Sometimes it's been difficult to stay positive, especially after the injuries that I've had, which have been frustrating.

It's been my experience with damaged people: they don't wake up every day and wallow in the bad things that have happened to them.

When you don't have a support system, and you're constantly being bullied for who you are, and you begin to not accept yourself for who you are, it's a distraction from schoolwork. It's a distraction from learning and from growing.

Wrestling saved my life.

I don't like the feeling of being unhappy. I don't like the feeling of being unsure about myself, or uncertain with where something's going - I would rather turn away. I just can't feel like that ever again. It's just horrible.

I'm almost positive I have some type of PTSD. Almost a decade of my life was consumed by the prison system.

I still go through times when I'm down. I don't feel like I'm that strong woman that people think I am today.

Horrible experiences lead us to wonder whether the person who experiences them might not be something horrible.

The last couple of years were hell. Like, I can't even tell you, it was so hard. I didn't know how to handle it. But I think I'm in a much better place now, because I stepped away for a second and took a breath. Hollywood is a funny place. It offers so much, but it can also take a lot away from you.

Writing about my illness put me into places. It was very triggering. I had to completely remove myself and practice self-care. I learned to be patient.

Once shame touches your being at any point, even the most distant nerve is implicated, whether you know it or not; any fleeting encounter or random thought will rake up the anguish and add to it.