REBECCA LOOS

I did not know what my future was going to hold.

I wanted to step forward and be on TV and for people to see who I really was.

I'm a new mum who spends her days making baby food and cooking for her man. And I couldn't be happier.

I am not trying to give an image of a fairytale, perfect, everything else, I am just being myself.

I got a phone call saying we are from the News of the World, and we're exposing you and David Beckham. My heart did not beat for a minute.

Don't get me wrong - I love London, and still have an apartment there.

I am utterly in love with my son and my boyfriend and live in the most magical place on Earth. I've been in Norway for ten months now and I have loved every minute of it.

I was reading so much about myself in the papers that was not me.

I wanted control over what was said and what was not said, rather than holding my head down in shame.

I think I regret the impact on everybody. But I think I just maybe could have gone about it in a kinder way.

For me, it was never about the money. It was about the truth, about being honest.

I took a lot of wrong decisions, and got talked into a lot of things. Of course, if I could go back in time, I might change some things, but wouldn't everyone? I have no regrets.

Life takes care of people in the end.

If I hadn't have fallen pregnant by my then-boyfriend, I would probably still be living in London doing the celebrity scene.

Being pregnant is a marvellous experience. Before, I was afraid about the idea of giving birth, but now, I'm really looking forward to it.

I like the way my life has taken me.

I'm a mother now and married, and knowing what I know now, I would definitely have gone about things quite differently.

Many people are so afraid of change.

I like to think I am the sort of person who tries to make the best of things and try to look at the positive side of things.

I don't regret speaking out, but I regret the way I went about it, so put it that way, yes.

I was never going to be one of those women who put their career on hold, who put their hand out to their husband to ask permission. I used to think that was the worst.

I have about two manicures a year, maybe three haircuts. I used to get blowdries all the time, and I never did my own hair. Now I'm last in the queue - the focus is on my home.

I love caring for my home and family.

If I hadn't been famous, I would not have been invited on the TV show where I met my husband Sven and had my lovely boys. I would not have had the life I have now.

Motherhood and marriage are the best bits of my life now. Who would have thought I would be enjoying that?