JESY NELSON

I went from someone who really wanted to perform from a really young age - that was all I knew - to going on 'X-Factor', which I thought was going to be the most incredible experience ever and it becoming the worst experience of my life.

I'm not really sure if I want kids. It's never really been on my agenda.

I never had an issue with my weight or how I looked before 'X-Factor' or social media and then as soon as I got it, I slowly mentally started to believe everything people were saying about me.

I wasn't just known as one of the singers in Little Mix, I was known as 'the fat, ugly one'.

I honestly think if I had been a solo artist, it wouldn't have been as bad. Because I was being compared to three other girls, it made people have more of an opinion. If I had been on my own, there would be no one to compare to.

I didn't want to annoy anyone or be seen as a diva.

I will never, ever sit here and say, 'Oh my God, I'm so confident now, I love myself', because I don't.

Back then I just thought everyone hated me. But no, actually, they're doing it because they feel bad about themselves. So now when I look at trolls being nasty, I feel a bit sorry for them.

I think I feel like a kid myself, so it's quite a scary thought having kids. I don't think I'm ever not going to feel like a child myself.

Remember we're all human and we all have our good days and bad days and days when we feel banging and other days when we feel absolutely rotten and that's ok.

I think because we were a girl group, there was such a stigma, so we had to engage with fans - social media was such a big part of our journey.

But it wasn't until I deleted Twitter that everything changed for me and I slowly started to feel normal again.

As long as I'm happy with myself and mentally happy, it doesn't matter what other people think. Everyone's always going to have an opinion, you can't stop that.

I would leave halfway through a photoshoot, because I couldn't bear looking at myself or being in front of a camera. I used to feel disgusted in myself.

I definitely want to get married, that's for sure. When that will be, I don't know.

You're all beautiful in your own unique ways and there is no one in the world like you and that is what makes us special.

I had a routine of waking up, going on Twitter, searching for the worst things I could about myself.

I could see that I was losing weight and sometimes I'd see a few good comments and that spiralled me to be like: 'This is how I need to stay.' No one cares whether your performance was good, or if you sounded great.

I'd become a bit of a joke. People would make memes, chopping my head off in a group photo and putting a monster or ET on there. I'd be in live Q&As and these things would pop up and I'd have to just sit there.

Just wear what you want, if you like something that's all that matters. Dress for yourself not for other people.

If you want to wear something, all that matters is that you love it, not what other people think. Learn to love yourself!

I'm not going on a diet, I'm not trying to lose weight, because your insecurities are what make you different and if everyone looked the same, it'd be boring.

When I was younger I got bullied about the way I looked and I thought once I was older it would stop. I hated going to school, but didn't know who to talk to about it. It knocked my confidence a lot.

I truly believe that you can do anything if you just believe in yourself.

You don't have to be perfect to be a popstar.