Death is easier than a wretched life; and better never to have born than to live and fare badly.
Sometimes in life you reach your breaking point, when you just can't deal with something anymore.
It was extremely difficult to suppress my emotions, because my character in' A Girl at My Door' goes through so many infuriating situations. It was a lonely process having to portray someone that acts tough but is deeply hurting inside and is unable to express that.
The experience and behavior that gets labeled schizophrenic is a special strategy that a person invents in order to live in an unlivable situation.
We are doomed to cling to a life even while we find it unendurable.
For Mum, life was fundamentally hell. You went blind, you got raped, people forgot your birthday, Nixon got elected, your husband fled with a blonde from Beckenham, and then you got old, you couldn't walk and you died.
We can put women on Prozac and they will think they are happy, even though they are not. Disturbed animals in the zoo are given Prozac too, which rather suggests that misery is a response to unbearable circumstances rather than constitutional.
But suppose you struggle through to the good and find that it also is dreadful? How if food itself turns out to be the very thing you can't eat, and home the very place you can't live, and your very comforter the person who makes you uncomfortable? Then, indeed, there is no rescue possible: the last card has been played.
He has to live in the midst of the incomprehensible, which is also detestable.
I couldn't stand it. I still can't stand it. I can't stand the way things are. I cannot tolerate this age.
At certain times in your life, some things are heavier than others.
