But once you allow yourself to recognize necessity, you find two things: One you find your options so restricted that the only course of action is obvious, and, two, that a great sense of freedom comes with the decision.
I regret my lack of options. I regret being painted into a corner and having that be the only instrument to get me from point A to point B.
But in the long term, I think it is improper to limit your future.
I don't know if I approach choice any differently than the sighted people do, but what I am very cognizant of is that choice does have limits and because of that I really try to take advantage of the domains in which I do have choice.
When I was young, I had no choice as to what I was eating.
I'm running out of places I can run, looking for a place in the sun.
The parameters are such that I don't get offered a lot of work. I'm sure most directors hear my list of don'ts and say forget it.
Then, the other thing that affected my interest in choices growing up was the fact that I was going blind and that meant that there were lots of questions that constantly kept arising about how much choices I actually could have.
The more you work and get known for something, sometimes things begin to narrow a bit, and your opportunities get more... specific.
In this country, you don't have any democracy really. You have the right to elect but not to select. For example, here's two people: you get to vote for one of them. But you didn't choose in the first place either of them. That's not democracy…
Not all possibilities are open to us. The world is finite; our hopes spill over its rim.
After things started to happen here, my choice of material was extremely limited. It was a weird situation.
