I have the wonderful pleasure of finishing the book and closing it. And I don't read them later.
When I finish a book, I'm so exhausted that I'm sort of letting myself think that this could be the end.
I had this really great amazing thing happen where I almost finished the book and I really needed to come up with an ending and I decided to go back and re-read the book and see if I could come up with an ending.
SADNESSES OF THE INTELLECT: Sadness of being misunderstood [sic]; Humor sadness; Sadness of love wit[hou]t release; Sadne[ss of be]ing smart; Sadness of not knowing enough words to [express what you mean]; Sadness of having options; Sadness of wanting sadness; Sadness of confusion; Sadness of domes[tic]ated birds; Sadness of fini[shi]ng a book; Sadness of remembering; Sadness of forgetting; Anxiety sadness.
Beppu (n.) The triumphant slamming shut of a book after reading the final page.
You think you're writing the most important book, you think you're writing the most stupid book, and you never really know before it's done that it's going to be done.
When I am so intensely involved with writing my books, I don't like to reread them. I feel like that story is done.
Imagine that you are dying. If you had a terminal disease would you finish this book? Why not? The thing that annoys this 10-weeks-to-live self is the thing that is wrong with the book. So change it. Stop arguing with yourself. Change it. See? Easy. And no one had to die.
