Terence McKenna Quotes

I'm not surprised that I tend to go for the dark side. I was a really scared kid, so I think I understand what scares people.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I know other people have it a lot worse. I do know that, but it's crashing in anyway, and I just can't stop thinking that the little kid eating french fries with his mom in the shopping mall is going to grow up and my sister.

Since I was shot, everything is such a dream to me. Like I don't know whether I'm alive or whether I died. I wasn't afraid before. And having been dead once, I shouldn't feel fear. But I am afraid. I don't understand why.

The release of 'Lungs' was so hard. It was terrifying, because it was the first time doing everything. The first experiences of media exposure were almost paralysing. I spent a lot of time crying on the floor of the studio - it sent me a bit mad.

I couldn't deal with a normal life.

I was a very anxious kid. I was bullied at primary school and responded by making myself as anonymous as possible at secondary school.

My story is just my story, and it's not nearly as traumatic as some.

I'm not ashamed to say I fear something.

I went through a lot of changes and a period of depression. I'd reached an age when I had to grow up and start taking life a bit more seriously, which had a huge impact on me. I suffered terrible anxiety, and sometimes, in the middle of a game, my legs would start shaking uncontrollably. It was pretty scary.

Everybody’s afraid of something.

I think a lot of time, I'm just writing my worst fears.

Anxiety is loves greatest killer.

Pull yourself together' is seldom said to anyone who can.

I am stronger than words and I am bigger than the box I'm in, and then I see her in the crowd and I fall apart -I am listening and I am listening because what I'm playing isn't something I'm thinking about, it's something I'm feeling all over.

I'd have a nervous breakdown except that I've been through this too many times to be nervous.

You spend so much time, so much effort, trying to hold yourself together. And then everything falls apart anyway.

Fear / a motor, / pumps me around and around / until I fade slowly.

I was in a very dark place for a long time. It's just so hard to have normalcy.

The thing about those conditions [anxiety and depression] that sucks the worst is that you don't address the root cause, so you never see it coming. What's worse is when you don't even KNOW what the root cause is, you can never fix the problem. So that's what's really scary.

I think there is a part of me that's always a little bit like, "Why would I torture myself? Just in case you forgot how big the shoes are you're walking in, take a look again". Like, I think I pussy out. So, I'm not that kind of person.

Professionally, I'm a perfectionist, and to allow people to see that maybe I wasn't always perfect or put together - that my actual personal life was very messy at times... it was scary to let people know that.

I learned, by the time I was twenty, I'm not gonna die from a panic attack; you feel like you're going to.

The 'Horn 'OK' Pleassss' harassment incident and the mob attack there had sent me spiralling into a deep state of depression in 2008.

When I was a kid, I had two nightmares: one was nuclear war, and the other was that my parents would get a divorce; and when I was twenty, they split up, and I just felt like I needed to confront all those things that scared me as a kid - entering young adulthood and trying to have relationships.

We're only human, and fear can eat away at you the closer you get to a big fight.