Sonya Deville Quotes

Throughout my life, I have grappled with my own identity, who I am. As a young child, I often felt ambivalent about myself, in fact, confused.

I've had times in my life when I really haven't been able to figure myself out.

I had a lot of hurts and confusions. You know, it's hard when you're a kid to be different. You're all full of things, and you don't know that it's about.

If I saw my 15-year-old self now, I'd think I wasn't that bad, but back then I perceived myself as awful.

Not sure of my place in the world (still up for debate) and not sure what I wanted to do with my life (not really up for debate).

I know it sounds pathetic, but I don't know who I am.

Anybody can get lost in themselves.

You grow and you change, or at least you think you do, but you're kind of the same.

The cardinal rule for any performer is that they should know themselves before they enter the spotlight, and I didn't. I was just Neil and I did what I was supposed to do. I was supposed to get married, so I got married. I was supposed to get a job, so I looked for work.

I used to think I had ambition... but now I'm not so sure. It may have been only discontent. They're easily confused.

I was deeply uncertain of who I was and who I wanted to be. I really thought I wanted to be a much cooler guy than what I was.

I have a lot of growing up to do, or a lot of growing down. I think that's probably more appropriate.

In middle school, we are all so damn insecure. It was the worst time for me, really destructive, like slapping myself across the face but loving it. Now I have to be an adult and change myself. I have to be a bigger person.

I've just grown up a lot and started to encounter some of the big decisions of life in terms of what career I wanted to do and figuring out personal relationships and things.

Puberty extends into your twenties, for sure, and some people don't get over that until much later in life. I feel like I'm just starting to get over puberty - basically twenty years of insufferable, totally self-obsessed hell.

In the early 2000s, I was going through a lot. I didn't have my head screwed on right. Where I was at as a man, I was still growing up.

I got a lot of paradoxes in my life. I guess I'm a real confused person, but there are some focused parts to my life now, and I'm slowly trying to put all the pieces back together.

I'm okay with myself. I had times when I was 15 about 'Who I am?' and 'What am I?' and where I want to go, and that's behind me.

When I was younger, I thought I was too young to really be personal. I thought that what I was feeling and thinking might be half-baked.

One day I actually took the list into the bathroom and I put it up against my face and looked in the mirror and I realized I had one of two choices, change the list or change myself.

I know my 17-year-old self would read my bourgeois fiction, full of metaphors and rhythmic prose, with a sinking heart.

As an academic, this was not the lifestyle I had planned for myself. Now I see myself everywhere.

I'd never want to go back to being in my twenties or thirties. I was lost and confused and uncomfortable in my own skin.

There are times I can't even figure myself out.

Yeah, I've had an odd youth, But I wouldn't know the difference if I'd lived it any other way. And I wouldn't change any of it because I quite like what I'm doing.