Nickolas Ashford Quotes

The concept of loneliness and exile and self-sufficiency continually bucks me up.

I had no friends. I worried a lot.

I never feel more alone than when I'm traveling. Alone and, to some extent, helpless. The world expects a certain level of competence and can be merciless when this expectation is unmet.

I can't be alone.

I know what it is like to feel vulnerable and fearful during a difficult time.

A woman's body should be stronger than the environment. Strong enough to overpower the negative elements, especially in cities like New York and Los Angeles.

Prayer is like lying awake at night, afraid, with your head under the cover, hearing only the beating of your own heart. It is like a bird that has blundered down the flue and is caught indoors and flutters at the windowpanes. It is like standing a long time on a cold day, knocking at a shut door.

Just leave me alone. I'm not myself. I'm falling apart, and I don't want you here.

I lie on the floor, washed by nothing and hanging on. I cry at night. I am afraid of hearing voices, or a voice. I have come to the edge, of the land. I could get pushed over.

Pray to god someone prays for me

I must spin good ghosts out of my hope to oppose the hordes at my window. If those who look in see me condescend to barricade the door, they will know too much and crowd in to overcome me.

Angelus: Now that's everything, huh? No weapons... No friends...No hope. Take all that away... and what's left? Buffy: Me.

But when you're alone in the world, really alone, you have no choice but to be open to suggestions.

Yesterday he told me he thought I would have to pretend to be weak, but he was wrong. I am weak already. I brace myself against the wall and press my forehead to my hands. It’s difficult to take deep breaths, so I take short, shallow ones. I can’t let this happen. They attacked me to make me feel weak. I can pretend they succeeded to protect myself, but I can’t let it become true.

I limited myself to one shout a day. But I didn't like the sound of my voice. It sounded panicked, it sounded scared. And I knew from experience you can't hear more than 50 yards either way down a canyon.

Alone I'm nothing.

It's only when you're alone that you realize where you are. You have nothing to fall back on except your own resources.

You aren't going to leave me alone are you?

What I was reading was already part of my psyche, but finally someone else was saying it's okay to walk alone.

It is good to be solitary, for solitude is difficult; that something is difficult must be a reason the more for us to do it.

I really struggle with that feeling of helplessness. That's why I really try to get my blogs, and even myself, to point to the positive and look at all the inspiring things that are happening.

It is impossible to go through life without trust: that is to be imprisoned in the worst cell of all, oneself.

A reprisal of this magnitude... has never been carried out before. I paced back and forth in my room perplexed and completely depressed, feeling helpless.

The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering.

I have seen in my life, I have struggled so much. I did not get support from anyone.