Marya Hornbacher Quotes

I'm like one of those firecrackers that goes off in your pocket occasionally. I'm not really struggling with it as much as the people around me. But at least I'm not doing too much damage to anybody or to myself. It's just the condition I'm aware of.

I was completely nuts for most of my life.

I think a novel has to be about where you are at a given moment in time. I think it really needs to represent some specific pain you're going through. it's not just a story.

I can't control my frustration.

It is difficult to write about any form of mental disease, especially your own, without sounding as if you were examining a bug under glass.

I was mad until I was about 25. Completely out of control with my emotions. Everything that happened to me was a tragedy. I've been much happier over 25.

I'm really out of touch with myself emotionally. I've always had a hard time talking about how I feel.

Your emotions are very unstable and should never be the foundation for direction in your life.

I struggle with control.

I think I'm still a little too intense for my own good sometimes.

I'm surprised that I've survived my own dysfunction, really.

I wear my shadows where they're harder to see, but they follow me everywhere. I guess that should tell me I'm travelling toward light.

It's hard listening to myself.

All of my close friends are emotional train wrecks. This is what makes our lives interesting - constantly doubting ourselves, worrying, wondering if we've made a mistake. Could we have done better? Are we good people? Are we bad people?

Everyone has monsters and demons within themselves. They're metaphors for the human condition.

Identity has been such an explosive territory for me... so hard, so painful at times.

I regret so much. I've made mistakes. I've hurt people. I've done things I'm not proud of. But on the other hand, that way lies madness, you know?

If you're upset by something I said, you have bigger problems than you think.

I did a lot of struggling with my identity trying to figure out who the heck I was. I had to face my demons.

You can have ups and downs, and I know that as good as anybody because I've had them.

I have managed to conceal my madness fairly effectively, and as far as I know it hasn't hurt anybody badly, for which I am grateful.

I wish you'd help me look into a more interesting problem - namely, my sanity.

I sometimes think that I enjoy suffering. But the truth is I would prefer something else.

I enjoy playing characters who are struggling, particularly with themselves.

Even though I'm often crazy - and I am, and I know it - still I fight it because I know how sterile, how futile, how bleak... nothing grows from it, and you, meanwhile, only grow into it like a snail.