Ester Dean Quotes

Ninety percent of the time when I'm working, there's this very palpable sensation that I'm doing everything wrong and should just give up.

There are several times when I walked into a room and just felt like such a sham. That's the problem with auditioning.

I don't like being bad at anything.

I lack confidence as an actor.

In a way, I'm always trying to do something I'm not qualified to do. So I feel that lack of qualification. And I'm scared. And I have a tendency to think things may not/probably won't work out. That's my basic mindset.

I'm usually convinced that what I'm working on is a total disaster.

I lost my confidence.

Anything you can suck at should make you nervous.

Sometimes I panic and think I can't really write.

I think I'm still trying to find my feet as an actor. And I know it ain't brain surgery, but it confuses me and it comes between me and my sleep a lot.

I've got this horrible feeling that I'm one of those people who'll always have to flog their guts out to get anywhere.

I'm full of self-doubt. I doubt everything I do. Everything I do is a failure.

It's funny, I never think I'm doing that well. I've never, ever. I just constantly think, 'This isn't working out.'

I feel like I'm not smart enough to answer the questions I'm asked.

Life is shining a light through a magnifying glass on me, looking for me to stumble. I think that's my biggest fear.

Sometimes you can doubt your own abilities to do certain things. We get nervous, we get stuck, or we're not sure if we can live up to what we want to do.

Sometimes I feel I have no idea what I'm doing as an actor. I just did a tape for the TV remake of 'The Rocky Horror Picture Show,' and I think it could be the worst thing I've ever done.

I don't feel like I make sense in the world. I don't feel like I look right. I don't feel like I act right or do right. It's very frustrating to me that I just walk around with this all the time.

I'm terrible with titles.

I feel like an inadequate machine, a machine that breaks down at crucial moments, grinds to a dreadful hault, 'won't go,' or, even worse, explodes in some innocent person's face.

Emotionally, I feel mostly out-of-depth, like I will never quite learn how to be what I should be. And that makes me feel pretty vulnerable a lot of the time.

For the few little successes I may seem to have, there are acres of misgivings and self-doubt.

I knew that this job would be too much for me.

He pretended it was the only thing that kept him from it. But, far back in his mind, he wondered if he could write anything. Often the question threw itself at him when he was least expecting it. You have four hours every morning, the statement would rise like a menacing wraith. You have time to write many thousands of words. Why don't you? And the answer was always lost in a tangle of becauses and wells and endless reasons that he clung to like a drowning man at straws.

Like most writers I spend a lot of my time sort of thinking, "It's such agony, I can't do it."